Tuesday, April 20, 2010

essays

I'll be writing a personal essay (for class)on one of two things...
Either the topic of how waiting tables (serving) has contributed to my patient care skills
or
an old blog from long ago, more of a fictional piece.
Thoughts? The topic is open as it is our last paper.

Gotta get into the writing mood....

Friday, March 12, 2010

trying to get a groove back..

if only it were that easy.
to drift effortlessly away into the nothingness that ive become.
forgotten and alone i sit wishing for my old identity.
what is it about a career that defines who we are? why doesnt anyone remember me?
i made that life my life and then one day my life ended.

and i havent been able to get it back.

i found something else.
something old and familiar and easy
easier than cake and much more stale.
i crave a new flavor and something with frosting.
but everything makes me yawn.
and everything hurts.

i feel like ive been murdered. and i keep reliving my death.
maybe i killed myself?

Thursday, March 11, 2010

thinking about writing... again

I have moments.
Moments of inspiration come suddenly. i'm rarely thinking its worthy of anyones time.

school is taking up so much. and it is really all i have right now. i keep taking these stupid jobs that get me by for a few months and then i go away. No one calls no one answers emails when i try to reach out.

i ramble
that is why i keep waiting for the inspiration to come.

but my paintings are going well...

i wish i had a real job or an identity.